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My first hormone level check results came in.  They are looking great according to my doctor.  I find it interesting when they tested me before they put me on hormones to transition I was on the low end for male hormones.

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I tried reading some of my old posts today.  I couldn’t do it.  It’s too hard.  To look back and see where I was.  To see all those raw feelings.  To read all those emotions that flowed out without a care of who could read it.  I also realized how far I have actually come.  I went from being confused mentally and sexually to now knowing who I am and who I want to be with.  I have changed so much in the past couple of years.  I am now becoming the woman I was meant to be.  I am more in love with my wife than I ever thought was possible.  One of my best friends has become a sister to me and calls me sister.  I’m scared and excited to see where I will be in the next couple of years.

Also, when I started this blog, it was supposed to be an anonymous outlet for me where only one person I knew in person knew about this blog.  Then my cousin found the blog a couple of months into it and now I noticed one of my other best-friend’s girlfriend is now following me.  At first I was a afraid for anyone to find this blog.  But the more I think about it, so what if they read about me.  They can read about my journey and my struggles.  They can read about my emotions and feelings.  They can follow in my growth.  I hope that whom ever finds this blog, that they know a lot of the early writings were raw emotions that needed to be out.  And if they have any questions, they can feel free to talk to me.

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rorythepond:

thevitalquietlife:

ivoury:

hiraethphantomhive:

laylacon:

If you don’t reblog this, I’m judging you.

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of course

Forever reblog - i’m always here for my followers and those that just view my blog.

just my followers? fuck that im here for anyone

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scarsneverfadexo:

traumaticmemories:

ijusttrolledyouwithbazinga:

nateryan12:

teen-physco-path:

lifes-not—always-easy:

welcome-to-my-h311:

deal-with-scars:

Too many notes :(

I’m about to start crying because the amount of notes.It’s estimated that about two million people in the U.S. self injure themselves in some way. The majority are teenagers or young adults with young women outnumbering young men. They are of all races and backgrounds.

1 in 6 teenagers selfharm.


im a freak 

No you’re not

i love you all

i’m ugly and fat. sorry for everything

scarsneverfadexo:

traumaticmemories:

ijusttrolledyouwithbazinga:

nateryan12:

teen-physco-path:

lifes-not—always-easy:

welcome-to-my-h311:

deal-with-scars:

Too many notes :(

I’m about to start crying because the amount of notes.
It’s estimated that about two million people in the U.S. self injure themselves in some way. The majority are teenagers or young adults with young women outnumbering young men. They are of all races and backgrounds.

1 in 6 teenagers selfharm.

im a freak 

No you’re not


i love you all

i’m ugly and fat. sorry for everything

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Reblog if you’re embarrassed of your weight or how you look.

Posted 1 week ago

This could be fun (or extremely depressing)

  1. I'm a bit bored and I know no one will ask any of these so I am just gonna answer all of them:
  2. 1: Name - Bryce
  3. 2: Age - 34
  4. 3: 3 Fears - losing my wife, not being able to provide for my wife, losing my friends
  5. 4: 3 things I love - my wife, my friends, my cats
  6. 5: 4 turns on - eyes, good humor, legs, good smile
  7. 6: 4 turns off - rude, boring, judgemental, sexist
  8. 7: My best friend - Hope (who is more of a sister to me than my sister)
  9. 8: Sexual orientation - Bisexual
  10. 9: My best first date - sushi and a movie with my now wife
  11. 10: How tall am I - 5' 7"
  12. 11: What do I miss - Some friends from my past
  13. 12: What time were I born - no clue, I think some time in the evening
  14. 13: Favourite color - purpe
  15. 14: Do I have a crush - on my wife
  16. 15: Favourite quote - mess with the best, die like the rest ~ Hackers
  17. 16: Favourite place - Outer Banks, NC
  18. 17: Favourite food - Chili
  19. 18: Do I use sarcasm - Never ;P
  20. 19: What am I listening to right now - Diners Drivin and Dives
  21. 20: First thing I notice in new person - their eyes
  22. 21: Shoe size - anywhere between an 8.5 to 9.5 depending on the shoe
  23. 22: Eye color - boring brown
  24. 23: Hair color - black with unfortunately some grey
  25. 24: Favourite style of clothing - hippish
  26. 25: Ever done a prank call? Nope
  27. 27: Meaning behind my URL - Angel (like to look after people), light (try to always look on the bright side of things), 1978 (birth year)
  28. 28: Favourite movie - Pirates of the Carribean
  29. 29: Favourite song - Dream On
  30. 30: Favourite band - Aerosmith
  31. 31: How I feel right now - Worried about my wife after her surgery
  32. 32: Someone I love - my wife
  33. 33: My current relationship status - married
  34. 34: My relationship with my parents - good
  35. 35: Favourite holiday - 4th of July
  36. 36: Tattoos and piercing i have - 2 piercings per ear, celtic band on left wrist, Love symbol on left forearm, 2 fairies on left shoulder, custom compass design on right shoulder, fraternaty letters on right ankle
  37. 37: Tattoos and piercing i want - Angel wings on back, light & dark fairies on chest, fire fairy on left calf
  38. 38: The reason I joined Tumblr - to build a community with other Transgender people
  39. 39: Do I and my last ex hate each other? Not sure, haven't spoken to her since the divorce over 10 years ago
  40. 40: Do I ever get “good morning” or “good night ” texts? yes
  41. 41: Have I ever kissed the last person you texted? yes
  42. 42: When did I last hold hands? today with my wife
  43. 43: How long does it take me to get ready in the morning? an hour or more
  44. 44: Have You shaved your legs in the past three days? yup and due to do it again
  45. 45: Where am I right now? on my couch taking care of my wife
  46. 46: If I were drunk & can’t stand, who’s taking care of me? I don't drink enough to ever get drunk
  47. 47: Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level? loud, slowly going deaf due to having too many ear infections when I was younger
  48. 48: Do I live with my Mom and Dad? No, but my in-laws live next door
  49. 49: Am I excited for anything? for my wife to heal from her surgery
  50. 50: Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to? yes
  51. 51: How often do I wear a fake smile? all the time
  52. 52: When was the last time I hugged someone? this afternoon
  53. 53: What if the last person I kissed was kissing someone else right in front of me? they better be cute and willing to kiss me too if they are kissing my wife ;)
  54. 54: Is there anyone I trust even though I should not? nope, everyone I trust has earned it
  55. 55: What is something I disliked about today? too hot
  56. 56: If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be? Ryan Reynolds (he's so hot)
  57. 57: What do I think about most? my transition and how my wife is handling it
  58. 58: What’s my strangest talent? none I can think of
  59. 59: Do I have any strange phobias? is a fear of people leaving me strange?
  60. 60: Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it? Behind, otherwise I'll break the camera ;)
  61. 61: What was the last lie I told? I'm fine
  62. 62: Do I perfer talking on the phone or video chatting online? texting
  63. 63: Do I believe in ghosts? How about aliens? yes and yes
  64. 64: Do I believe in magic? yes, can someone magically change me into the woman I know I am?
  65. 65: Do I believe in luck? yes and I usually only have bad luck
  66. 66: What's the weather like right now? hot
  67. 67: What was the last book I've read? Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire
  68. 68: Do I like the smell of gasoline? No
  69. 69: Do I have any nicknames? Bibi (aunt) and 2b (long long story)
  70. 70: What was the worst injury I've ever had? dislocated knee
  71. 71: Do I spend money or save it? spend
  72. 72: Can I touch my nose with a tounge? no
  73. 73: Is there anything pink in 10 feets from me? unfortunately no
  74. 74: Favourite animal? wolf
  75. 75: What was I doing last night at 12 AM? sleeping
  76. 76: What do I think is Satan’s last name is? The fallen
  77. 77: What’s a song that always makes me happy when I hear it? Nine in the Afternoon
  78. 78: How can you win my heart? be true to yourself
  79. 79: What would I want to be written on my tombstone? Loving wife
  80. 80: What is my favorite word? fuck
  81. 81: My top 5 blogs on tumblr - all the ones I follow are great
  82. 82: If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say? I am woman hear me roar
  83. 83: Do I have any relatives in jail? not that I'm aware of
  84. 84: I accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow me with the super-power of my choice! What is that power? to change into anyone I want whenever I want
  85. 85: What would be a question I’d be afraid to tell the truth on? What is the worst thing I have ever done
  86. 86: What is my current desktop picture? Pink flowers
  87. 87: Had sex? not in awhile and not for another 6 weeks
  88. 88: Bought condoms? don't need them anymore
  89. 89: Gotten pregnant? I wish
  90. 90: Failed a class? unfortunately
  91. 91: Kissed a boy? yes
  92. 92: Kissed a girl? Yes
  93. 93: Have I ever kissed somebody in the rain? yes
  94. 94: Had job? yes
  95. 95: Left the house without my wallet? too many times
  96. 96: Bullied someone on the internet? never
  97. 97: Had sex in public? yes
  98. 98: Played on a sports team? yes
  99. 99: Smoked weed? yes
  100. 100: Did drugs? yes
  101. 101: Smoked cigarettes? yes
  102. 102: Drank alcohol? yes
  103. 103: Am I a vegetarian/vegan? I was once for 2 years
  104. 104: Been overweight? still am
  105. 105: Been underweight? yes
  106. 106: Been to a wedding? many
  107. 107: Been on the computer for 5 hours straight? just 5 hours??
  108. 108: Watched TV for 5 hours straight? yup
  109. 109: Been outside my home country? yes
  110. 110: Gotten my heart broken? many times
  111. 111: Been to a professional sports game? unfortunately
  112. 112: Broken a bone? yes
  113. 113: Cut myself? yes
  114. 114: Been to prom? yes
  115. 115: Been in airplane? yes
  116. 116: Fly by helicopter? no
  117. 117: What concerts have I been to? Aerosmith, Phish, Florence & the Machine, Meatloaf, Kid Rock, Kiss, Brooks & Dunn
  118. 118: Had a crush on someone of the same sex? yes
  119. 119: Learned another language? tried and failed
  120. 120: Wore make up? yes
  121. 121: Lost my virginity before I was 18? nope
  122. 122: Had oral sex? yes
  123. 123: Dyed my hair? yes
  124. 124: Voted in a presidential election? yes
  125. 125: Rode in an ambulance? yes
  126. 126: Had a surgery? no
  127. 127: Met someone famous? yes
  128. 128: Stalked someone on a social network? no
  129. 129: Peed outside? yes
  130. 130: Been fishing? unfortunately
  131. 131: Helped with charity? yes
  132. 132: Been rejected by a crush? too many times
  133. 133: Broken a mirror? yes
  134. 134: What do I want for birthday? just to be surrounded by my closest friends
  135. 135: How many kids do I want and what will be their names? 2 alexander and elizabeth
  136. 136: Was I named after anyone? no
  137. 137: Do I like my handwriting? no too manly
  138. 138: What was my favourite toy as a child? GI Joe
  139. 139: Favourite Tv Show? Doctor Who
  140. 140: Where do I want to live when older? Florida
  141. 141: Play any musical instrument? used to play the alto sax
  142. 142: One of my scars, how did I get it? don't remember
  143. 143: Favourite pizza toping? pepperoni
  144. 144: Am I afraid of the dark? sometimes
  145. 145: Am I afraid of heights? yes and falling from them
  146. 146: Have I ever got caught sneaking out or doing anything bad? yes
  147. 147: Have I ever tried my hardest and then gotten disappointed in the end? too many times
  148. 148: What I'm really bad at: reading people
  149. 149: What my greatest achievments are marrying my soul mate
  150. 150: The meanest thing somebody has ever said to me called a freak and told to kill myself
  151. 151: What I'd do if I won in a lottery pay off all my bills and all my family and friends bills
  152. 152: What do I like about myself? my listening skills
  153. 153: My closest Tumblr friend: not saying
  154. 154: Something I fantasise about being the woman I was meant to be
Posted 1 week ago

My wife made it out of surgery!!!!! She’s in recovery.  I get to see her in an hour or two.  Woohoo…. I was so scared and nervous.  Such a relief.